home is where I want to be

If today had theme music, it would have to be "Keep the Customer Satisfied" by Simon & Garfunkel. The last half of this week feels very like an uphill battle. I keep getting burned by things that I've actually done correctly, but done at the wrong time, or done and not advertised that fact. For instance, I really did have all of today's stuff assembled for my boss before she left, early, yesterday. But because it was still on my desk and not hers and she didn't ask me for it before she left, she didn't have it, and therefore it was my fault anyway.

The problem is, I don't know what I don't know, until somebody else realizes I don't know it, and by then it's too late and I get asked not to do that again. The learning curve has caught up with me. I write down the really useful stuff that nobody tells me, so that (for instance) the person who gets the permanent job won't go through eight sheets of letterhead trying to get the margins right and get the paper not to go through the printer upside down, but I keep getting blindsided by little things. It's not a comfortable position to be in, at least not for me. I do tend to dwell on my own insufficiencies, though.

Oh well, as I said earlier this week, the worst that can happen is they call up the temp agency and ask for somebody else. And that won't happen until Monday if it happens at all, so I get paid for this week, and that means I can afford rent for October. That makes me feel somewhat better.

And it's Friday, which is good too.