it's my life

I must still be human, because I'm still fallible, but I don't feel human lately. Or maybe I feel more human than usual and that's what the problem is. In any case, I'm depressed, and now instead of feeling alone, I feel lonely, and I feel like I haven't been appreciated for a long time. I'm a monetary drain on my parents, and I'm so far geographically from most of my friends and my family that I feel like my presence would be an imposition. The fact that I'm moderately good at what I'm studying isn't a reason for an entire life any more. I need something else. Quite candidly, I probably need to get laid, to begin with.

Further thoughts to follow when I have more thoughts in general.