it's my life

[dchenes]

I must still be human, because I'm still fallible, but I don't feel human lately. Or maybe I feel more human than usual and that's what the problem is. In any case, I'm depressed, and now instead of feeling alone, I feel lonely, and I feel like I haven't been appreciated for a long time. I'm a monetary drain on my parents, and I'm so far geographically from most of my friends and my family that I feel like my presence would be an imposition. The fact that I'm moderately good at what I'm studying isn't a reason for an entire life any more. I need something else. Quite candidly, I probably need to get laid, to begin with.

Further thoughts to follow when I have more thoughts in general.

Comments

[scirocco.livejournal.com]

You're still human. And you coming back to visit would not be an imposition. I was very happy to see you the last time you came back. In fact, the hug I got from you when I saw you was the best hug I've gotten from anyone (sans Spouse) ever, I'd say. You're always welcome back here. :)

[enochs-fable.livejournal.com]

It's always odd to be struggling to build a life in a new place. I found the first year was all about settling in. The trick is figuring out ways to push yourself into new social situations to have people closer to you. It's hard.