ARGH make it STOP!

[dchenes]

Right. I have been depressed for two weeks now, and I'm tired of it. My brain is not working properly today, and I know it, and I want it to stop. I could barely do one thing at a time, and my usual operating speed is doing at least two things at once. Unfortunately, being determined isn't helping. Now I'm annoyed (at myself) and depressed.

Except that it will probably wind up conflicting with the apartment inspection (which STILL hasn't happened, and still hasn't been scheduled either), I would declare a personal day on Friday and get the hell out of Dodge for a long weekend. I need to be somewhere else for a while, preferably with different weather, although I can't afford to go anywhere with different weather.

Either that or I need to get really drunk, because I get less inhibited when I'm drunk and then I can yell at things and cry and get it out of my system and go on from there.

Comments

[scirocco.livejournal.com]

I got no plans tomorrow night. What's your poison? :)

[dchenes.livejournal.com]

Last night it was Tommyknocker's Winter Warmer porter, which beats Brooklyn Brewing Company's Chocolate Stout by about two miles.

[scirocco.livejournal.com]

Oops, I meant no plans for Friday night. And anything that beat Brooklyn Black must be REALLY GOOD. Sheesh.

[dchenes.livejournal.com]

Keep in mind, when I say one beer is better than another, it means I liked it better. It doesn't necessarily mean it is better. The Tommyknocker's hit the spot last night, is all.

That said, I was pretty unimpressed by Brooklyn Black when I had it.

[happyfunpaul.livejournal.com]

*hugs* and hoping you feel better soon...

We'll probably be having a foo on Saturday night. If so, it'd be great if you came. Can give you a ride home, especially if it's still cold.

[halleyscomet.livejournal.com]

This looks like a good reason to unpack the Scotch...

Want a drunken night at our place, or shall I send Whuffle over to you?

[whuffle.livejournal.com]

To start with, you are wayyy overdue to take a personal day. To hell with your landlady who can't be bothered to communicate effectively. Schedule an extra day off and get out of town for the weekend. You may be able to find a last-minute flight to somewhere warm. Or you might be able to just go somewhere reasonably far from here and visit with friends. Either way, you really are overdue to make time for yourself. (just one woman's opinion.)

I would also suggest gently that you might want to consider finding a couselor or therapist to talk to for a little while. It honestly can make a big difference. Its possible that the depression is just seasonally related, but it also sounds like you have bigger things to talk through and aren't comfortable talking to someone who knows you about them for fear of being judged or seen differently in their eyes. This is what therapists are good for.

[whuffle.livejournal.com]

When all else fails, if you can't afford to get away for the weekend, you could just stay home, turn off the phone, get drunk whenever you want, cry, and write, and play civ, and maybe that will provide the break you need?

Seriously though, if you do want to talk, I would be perfectly willing to listen quietly until you were done, not give any opinions unless you want to hear them, let you cry as much as you want, and give you a warm private place to curl up when you are done for as long as you need to be there.