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Apr. 28th, 2003 09:53 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
dchenesWell, now what?
I'm more or less resigned to the fact that I'm not getting into grad school. Given that, and given that I'm really sick of going to work and wondering why it isn't Friday yet, and why people can't leave me alone and solve their own problems, the conclusion I'm arriving at is that something's gotta give, and it's going to be my sanity if it isn't my job. So, I need a new job, preferably doing something else. (And the universe howls with laughter, and proceeds to make sure I'm going to be a secretary for the rest of my life.)
In the meantime, though, I need something to get myself up in the morning and through yet another day at the job I've got. "When you get home you can finally get (insert chore here) done" isn't working. Neither is "if you get through the week you can buy beer on Friday", mostly because I keep forgetting my passport, which is the only ID I have with which I can buy beer.
I've got this job for as long as I can stand it, or until I screw it up so badly they have no choice but to fire me. Right now I don't honestly care about any of it, mostly because it doesn't care about me. I've got a performance review coming up and I just know the upshot is going to be "you pass, but you need to be happier about having this job". Why should I? Nobody here cares about me, as long as I'm here to be told what to do and sniped at when I don't do it instantly. Everything I get says ASAP on it, but nobody remembers the AP bit. Suppose it's not possible to get it done in the next hour? Tough, do it anyway. Last week I got told to yell at the film developers for a mechanical problem that meant my boss had to wait until the next morning (gasp!) for his slides. If he wants to yell at them, he can yell at them himself.
I'm also getting tired of the mentality that seems to have gotten through the entire second floor of "I don't know what to do with this, let Molly deal with it." I don't mind if it's something that might have something to do with my department, but the other day I got a call transferred to me by the front desk from a patient who has never been in this department. The front desk couldn't be bothered to look up the number for the Perio office, so they gave it to me. This is on top of the calls I get that have nothing to do with this building. Do I look like the US Post Office? Why did the main switchboard even bother to transfer that?
So, the upshot is, the economy sucks, so I had better find a way to not only stand this job indefinitely, but care about it again. I'm damned if I know how to do that.
I'm more or less resigned to the fact that I'm not getting into grad school. Given that, and given that I'm really sick of going to work and wondering why it isn't Friday yet, and why people can't leave me alone and solve their own problems, the conclusion I'm arriving at is that something's gotta give, and it's going to be my sanity if it isn't my job. So, I need a new job, preferably doing something else. (And the universe howls with laughter, and proceeds to make sure I'm going to be a secretary for the rest of my life.)
In the meantime, though, I need something to get myself up in the morning and through yet another day at the job I've got. "When you get home you can finally get (insert chore here) done" isn't working. Neither is "if you get through the week you can buy beer on Friday", mostly because I keep forgetting my passport, which is the only ID I have with which I can buy beer.
I've got this job for as long as I can stand it, or until I screw it up so badly they have no choice but to fire me. Right now I don't honestly care about any of it, mostly because it doesn't care about me. I've got a performance review coming up and I just know the upshot is going to be "you pass, but you need to be happier about having this job". Why should I? Nobody here cares about me, as long as I'm here to be told what to do and sniped at when I don't do it instantly. Everything I get says ASAP on it, but nobody remembers the AP bit. Suppose it's not possible to get it done in the next hour? Tough, do it anyway. Last week I got told to yell at the film developers for a mechanical problem that meant my boss had to wait until the next morning (gasp!) for his slides. If he wants to yell at them, he can yell at them himself.
I'm also getting tired of the mentality that seems to have gotten through the entire second floor of "I don't know what to do with this, let Molly deal with it." I don't mind if it's something that might have something to do with my department, but the other day I got a call transferred to me by the front desk from a patient who has never been in this department. The front desk couldn't be bothered to look up the number for the Perio office, so they gave it to me. This is on top of the calls I get that have nothing to do with this building. Do I look like the US Post Office? Why did the main switchboard even bother to transfer that?
So, the upshot is, the economy sucks, so I had better find a way to not only stand this job indefinitely, but care about it again. I'm damned if I know how to do that.
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Jobs
Date: 2003-04-28 07:34 am (UTC)I know that when I meet with some headhunter type people, the main reason that I haven't been placed by one is because I only want to work for a nonprofit. There are still admin positions out there. It might take some time -- but I'm sure you could find something better!
Re: Jobs
Date: 2003-04-28 11:28 am (UTC)I too am looking for a new position. There ARE jobs out there. You should look. It can only help your situation.
Re: Jobs
Date: 2003-04-30 01:36 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2003-04-28 04:12 pm (UTC)Definitely start looking for another job - and possibly even look at other grad programs that might work? At this point, I've sent out so many resumes that I know I have to find a new tack, I'm just not sure what it is. Leave your job on your terms - not theirs. I made that mistake once. Never again.